Anxiety and time

I should stay calm
I am just beginning

But

My heart beats with anxiety
I am just anxiety
Anyway, anxiety ever is a shit
And I need give it some time
More time than I would like

But

The life doesn’t cares with my anxiety heart, does it?
The life isn’t a piece of cake
I need to accept this

But

The anxiety is stronger than me
And I remember when I was a child
Oh, grow up looked so amazing
And now, some times, I think
“Well, if I had one wish
I would say:
Grow up? Never more!”

But

I don’t have
And
This life
Is my
Only life.

“Bitter End” or “Amor Amargo”

Hey guys!

LOL, nobody knows about this blog.

In my native language, the book “Bitter End”, of writer Jennifer Brown, have the title of “Amor Amargo”. This book is a great fictional history about abusive relationships.

Alex, the protagonist girl, meets Cole, a new student of her school. Alex falls in love. Jennifer, the writer, made her readers to liked of Cole. We no fall in love for Cole just because we know the synopsis of this book – well, Alex doesn’t have a knowable about the real personality of your love, on the beginning of your relationship.

So, in a tragic day, Alex finally understood the hard situation lived for months. They don’t have just a “bitter end”: they had a “bitter love”, with abusive comportments of Cole all the time. Hard physical and emotional abuse.

The Brazilian Portuguese title, “Amor Amargo”, means “Bitter LOVE” in English, and for this fact, I prefer this title in my native language. Alex knows about the bitterness of your relationship for months before the tragic event happens. Anyway, she couldn’t escape of this relationship before felt much pain – all the pain she could support. The friends of Alex tried to remove her of this hard situation, but just her could escape, just on your own.

So I say: don’t was just a bitter end. Is never. All abusive relationships are a bitter love.

Bitter all the time.

And this book is just amazing!

It’s time to begin, isn’t?

All of my life, I wished learn the English language. It’s one of my dreams, but I don’t have a significant knowledge about this language. Today, I don’t know anything. But, it’s the first step for to my learning: I’m going to begin this.
If you read something idiot in this blog, I’m sorry. I’m need to practice, so, I’m going to make mistakes. It’s time to begin my journey, anyway.

Mirrors

I’m so tired
Of being
A simple and old mirror
Just reflecting your personality
In myself
But
I don’t know how
To be myself! Just myself

I’m like you
I’m your changes
I’m just a reflection of your fears

Am I real?
Or am I another you?